IM Sore

I don't want to be hurt anymore! I'm not your hollaback girl! It really really hurts to be ignored do you people know that! What has happened to me for the last six months may be insignificant to some people, or you may label me as sensitive. But honestly, you won't know how painful it is till you've been in my shoes.

True, I'm a protected person, I don't have enough confidence, and I'm not the funniest or prettiest. But I don't deserve to be treated like that by my 'friends'. Being blatantly ignored is, I can only describe it as insanely, fucking appalling. A stronger person might've just said 'fuck it all' and moved on. But who am I?! I'm NADIA! the girl with too much heart, so I keep loving people. I love and love and love but this time I got hurt really bad. I can't take lonliness, I can't fuck it all. I need people to like me I just do.

I don't even know where this is going. I think I'm just trying to write out my heartache. I eavesdropped and found out that the guy i like likes another girl. I guess from the very beginning I already knew liking him would only hurt me but no, i just HAD to fall for him. Eventually I guess, while liking him I came to terms about the whole impossible thing and was actually ok. But

Dad :)

It was floating ever so freely, no one could really utter a word about it. Because, really.. They couldn't see it. But oh how they felt it! They knew that when their hearts were united and when they looked to Him. His sovereignty and majesty would be in their midst. Exhilirating. 


Suddenly it glistened, of what they thought was mere oblivion indeed translated into a ray of endless beam. It shined brighter than any blood diamond. It gradually took form and many were captivated, as soon as it reached completion. It came to me, and so I stretched out my hand to grab hold of it and I did. It came to me.


He said unto me: "Take it.. Take your authority, take your success, take your promises, take your health, take your blessing.. Take your future."

PENKECOH VZ PENSENYAP

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Pernah try?pernah try untuk jadi senyap atau pendiam untuk beberape hari?(bagi orang2 yang kepoh mesti cakap 'oh tidak mane boleh,boleh mati nyah kalau tak cakap')
Bukan gwa suruh diam seribu bahase,cakap bila perlu,bila disoal je.Orang tak tanya kau,kau diam sudah lah.Buat hal sendiri.Faham?


Tadi aku saje je buat research macam mane orang pendiam boleh jadi penkecoh and vice verse.
Antare sebab sebab orang yang periang tetibe jadi pensenyap :


1. Ade masalah berat sangat dan die rase die perlukan mase untuk diri die berfikir.Jadi die akan diam dan otak die ligat berfikir.


2. Ade terbuat salah dekat orang sekeliling die tapi die tak tahu nak settle macamman,so die akan diam biar masa pulihkan semuanya.


3. Biar orang gerun tengok die.Yelah,selalu kecoh je tetibe diam.Mestilah orang fikir 'putus cinta kot'.Pade hal die buat muke macamtu biar orang tak kacau die focus nak study.


4. Yang ni memang tak boleh nak cakap ape lah kan-tertelan arang lepastu bisu.Memang lah die akan senyap.Sepanjang hayat,tapi die ade keistimewaan lain yang kite takde.


Eh okay biar aku story true story.Berape banyak story kau ade hah?


Naik cuti raya aku ada masalah besar.Masalah aku bawak sepanjang perjalanan JB-PERAK.Besar tak besar masalah aku?Sampai bawak hal ni ke negori orang.Kalah la PM.


Bile masalah dah mule menserabutkan jiwe dan kepale nak bercakap pun takde nafsu nye der.Sejak bile cakap nak kene gune nafsu ni oi?!


Masalah tu aku bawak berfikir mase dalam bilik je.Time blajar aku buat lupe sudah lah.Dah nak final time tu.Mane boleh meroyan sangat sampai bawak berfikir sampai sekolahnye?

Once kau senyap,macam macam benda boleh bergerak dalam kepale hotak kau.Try lah kalau tak percaye!Even mase orang lain kat sekeliling kau bercakap,kau akan fikir kronologi cerite tu.Fakta ke auta ke.Walaupun kau tak join sekaki berbual dengan diorang kau akan still tahu perkembangan semasa.


Bende yang aku paling sedar mase aku jadi pensenyap seketike tu,setiap kali kite bercakap mesti ade kalau tak banyak,sikit pun jadilah yang kite ade tersakitkan hati orang.Samaade kau perasan atau tak,kau fikir sendiri lah.Aku ade buat macam tu.Ah jangan cakap kau orang tak pernah.Manusie takde yang sempurne.


Dan kau kene jugak fikir bukan orang yang bersenyap dengan kite tu die marah kite atau nak cari gadoh or memang taknak layan or whatsoever,tapi he needs his time to handle his privacy matters.Do mind about that.


So yo,think about it wisely guys.Orang yang berjaye bukan yang banyak bercakap tapi lebih kepada mendengar.


Aku?Aku mane boleh jadi pensenyap buat selama lamanya!Menangis ayah aku nanti.So bile kau rase kau perlu behave,do behave yourself!


Dalam perikse je lah,kenape kite kene senyap?So that setiap orang akan focus dalam kerja yang die buat.Kalau bising examination's hall tu,baik kau dok exam dekat Pasar Awam Perling dekat dengan rumah acu  tu haa.


Till then,take care people.Penat gila ni panjang2 post bagai.Tak gomar aku

EARTHLINGS

Yo hello earthlings!
How did you feel today?
I'm feeling super great and totally happy conditions yay!


Jadi hari ni to-do-list @ untuk-buat-senarai and to-eat-food @ untuk-makan-makanan for this entry sepanjang gwa 12 hari kat rumah.Memang 12 hari tu kejap je . Before balik Perak :)

So here we go bebeh ;


* Mengemokkan badan di rumah
[ye mane tak nye petang2 je madah ade je benda aku nak masak.Semalam aku buat jemput2 tadi pulak potato wedges,semua minyak main peranan,woo gila gila]


* Melayan ibu gwa yang tercinta
[pagi2 ibu dah kejut aku bangun subuh.Lepastu teman ibu hantar adik gi sekolah *tadika ;p .Ibu yang drive,.Aku duduk sebelah temankan ibu sepanjang perjalanan tak sampai 8 min pun]


* Bermalas malasan
[ye,aktiviti ini digemari ramai kerana semua pelajar SMKSM sebenarnya pemalas.Jangan nak kencing ah kau orang kat rumah dok belajar untuk exam ]


* Memakan tengahari lauk pauk yang banyak bersama ibu
[Ibu masak,aku tukang sumbat dalam mulut je haha.Pastu dah tengah makan gelojoh tu cakap la 'sedap,sedap' .An sedap sikit hati mak ku dengar]


* Urut kaki ayah
[Ni dari cuti raya lepas tak terbuat lepastu bila ayah dah balik dae PAHANG rase sedih sendiri sebab madah terlupe je]


* Gaduh dengan nurul(adik gwa)
[Dia suruh aku teman die gi main bola la.Pastu petang2 gedegang tu ajak aku main bola dgn bebudak  .Kire main pass2 bola lah.Jadi aku memang akan lebih handal lah dari dia lepas ni]


Oh selain tu ade jugak beberape masakan and benda2 yang aku nak makan coz tak boleh jumpe kat mahkota .Boleh jumpe,tapi tak power sangat.Jadi aku suruh lah ibu masak :


* Tomyam
* Asam Pedas
* Ikan masam manis
* Ikan masak steam
* Ladna
* Laksa Johor


pehh bravoravo lah kalau dapat makan semua ni b4 balik semule ke hutan untuk pengembaraan.


Ok gwa nak solat maghrib


Till the,adiosza

Dear Heart ..

• swear , there'll no one else could replace you in my heart
• without you im nothing :'(
• dont you think i was too young when you said you wanna leave me :'(
• loving you is my own kind of drug , i know its bad for me . but im addicted :/
• BIE :'(  i lovee youu . 
•  Naja syg Afiq jea taww :'( . Naja tadee org lain daa , naja menangis untuk Afiq jea . Naja untuk Afiq sorg . Takkan ade org lain da ,

FRIENDSO :))

okay , lets talk about her . HAHA , myra sepet <3 . She's kind she's nice she've evrythng that you want :) . aku baru jee kenal minah nie . tp dea sgt sgt lahh baik . tgk tgk , dea cunn kan ? nampak mcm lembut tp layan 125ZR tuuu . HAHA , dea baik sgt ohh . tak nyesal kawan dgn deaa . dea faham segala galanya . HAHA , cite je laa pape unn , mesti dea tgkap punye . HAHA . myraa ! i love yuuu

eyka :) dea baek . HAHA , ktorg sme sme benci yana bodohh kuat . HAHA , kebodohannya tahap kuali karat ;p . HAHA , dea kdg kdg adee laa cer masala dea dkt aku . bg aku masala aku dgn dea na dkt sme laaa ;p . AHAH , salu gado dgn bf kte kann eyka ? AHAH . dea baek sgt . HAHA , sporting , open open . HAHA , tgk . dea ney matee besaa . aku kalahh dohh ;( . HAHA , nty Naja na pinjamm matee eykaaa ! bolattt ! HAHA , i love you eykaaa <3

adyba . lil sis :) . hee , dea sukee kte aku comey  . ish ish , HAHA . dea hot comel . HAHA , yg tuu jee aku na kte . blog post kali ni tak panjang sgt , kalo tules panjang panjang krem plaa jari . HAHA , 

LOVE YOU ALL ! FRIENDS FRIENDS ;)

alahaii . HAHAH

HAHA , sory lahh ABG FAEZ , ABG TORAP all . HAHAH , bkn tamao layan . adik mmg tanak layan lelaki , mintak maaf lahh . Bf adik jeless :) . adik tanak dea jeles , ta sampai hati . FB ? bosan . 2-3 hari ni , sblum na bkk FB aku pk 2-3 nak bke ke tanak . HAHA , tade ape yg best kat FB . Jibunnn . HAHA , lelaki lelaki . aku rimas la dorg IM -,- . HAISHH , cabut kepala baru taww -,- . ble tak layan mengutuk mcm harem . aiyaa , kat FB aku salu wall dgn KAKA EIRA , AMOY , SARAH , SHINMEI andd sape lgy eyhh ? HAHAHA , sory kpd yg aku tlpe . HAHAHA , ayahh :D . ayah dah baekk :D . Naja taoo , one day ayah msti brubah , Naja tapena marahh ayah sbb ayah pukul Naja . tapi kan , Naja ase mcm kejap sgt ade dgn ayah . Naja tingin na kongsi rasie Naja dgn ayah , lepak lepak dgn ayah mcm kwn2 Naja salu buat waktu petang , main dgn ayahh :( . Naja rindu ayah sgt sgt , Naja tpena bhgie cny taw ta . ye lahh , dari kecik ayah  layan Naja mcm sampah dlm kte yg lebey ade gayee lahh kan DINGIN dgn Naja . bayangkan 5 tahun tanpa ayah . tapi mama salu ade dgn Naja kongsi masalah Naja , thats why Naja bolee btahan smpy skrg . HAHA , and ta lupe dekat Ayah Farizul Suhaime , yg slame ney tolong Naja banyak . Ayah , halalkan duit ayah kat Naja taw . Naja ade due HERO yg PALING Naja sayang . Naja ade BATMAN andd BEN10 . HAHAHA , SUPERMAN Naja Iqwan . Hee , dea laa yg jge Naja time ayah tade . Ayah , One wish . Naja tanak Haziq Amsyar please ? He's Not The One Fer Me :) . Andd , HAHAHA. tataw na ckp pea dahh . byesbyes XD

its all was a test . be patient dear

Assalamualaikum , here's we go . it have been so hard between these couple month . hurm.. as a BIG GIRL . my mother said ' noo need to cry' . All the things that happened was a test from god . Be patient Nadia . Great Patient came with a Great Reward . Is it true ? nahh . i dont know -,- relly really dont know . maybe one day , i'll get it ? :D . HAHAHA , actually .. im pretending to be happy .. while inside . im not :(  problems and problems keeps following me . yeahh . Trouble is A Friend . why do i have to through all this things . give me a chance to live happily ;( . can I ? :'( . dear god . help me , Afiq . I love you , but we're always quarreling . why do we have to be like that ? yeah . jealousy . thats why . its all was my fault . hurm . promise! i'll not behaving like that starting from today  . afiq , im sorry for the wrong things that i've done . dear afiq . listen here . I love you more than everything , please .. treat me well :( . Your love is all i need . :( .



By , Nadia